sunneyone | Entries tagged with dreams

okay, i'm known for my weirdo dreams. i had three crazy ones this weekend... well, i'm sure i had more than that, but these are the three i remember.
friday i dreamed my friend frank here at work got married. i didn't see the girl he was marrying, but it was him. and the cast from third watch was there, because we worked with them. and at the reception, they were showing video clips from the show. really weird. i told frank about it today and he was like "yea, and i was old and gray in that dream, right?" haha. nope. he looked just like he does now. he was like "well, what'd she look like?" and of course, i didn't know. i just had this vague image of her, maybe she had long brown hair. he was wanting her to have short blonde hair. poor guy. i adore him. if i had had a little brother, i'd want him to be just like frank. i think he's so cool that if my sister-in-law lived in this area, i'd so be trying to fix them up.
today i dreamed two weird dreams. i mean strange. the first one, i was in the grocery store buying fruits and this guy was all into me. he walks up to me and he's all trying to kiss me and i'm like "i'm engaged." and i hold up my hand. the funny thing is, i remember having both my rings on, not just my engagement ring. lol. and anyway, he was started stalking me and next thing i know, i'm in my aunt faye's house, only it's not quite her house and he's trying to get in, so i'm running around to all the exits trying to lock them. two of the exits (the rooms not really in her house) had jewels on the door knob and in the locks. and the lock was strange. i can't explain how it was, but they weren't normal locks. i remember in the dream, i was calling the police on him.
my last dream was definitely a dream of my subconscious desires. i dreamed someone had parked a stolen SUV in my backyard and stole my car! i know i was thinking "well, they couldn't've gotten far, because it's overheating." lol. and i remember i was wondering if they would get in a chase and totl it. this was the last dream i had before i woke up, so i sorta expected not to see my car in the yard. but, it was there (dammit).
my head still hurts. there's still a tender spot on the back of my head. i wish someone would be able to see if it's bruised, but i have too much hair and they'd probably hurt me. i got to work okay today, but i was running late. it was fter 5 when i got out of the shower and i wanted to leave at 5. but i got here at a decent time. and i only stalled once on the way in. it feels so good to be able to drive a stick. i better watch it tho, people might be able to figure out that if i really want to do something, i can.
i really hate everybody loves raymond. CBS needs to move this show to wednesday and put king of queens on mondays in this slot so i don't have to watch this crap. maybe that's why i'm nauseated and i have a headache. that's why i feel sick. it's not got a thing to do with me not eating yet. yea, it's not hunger, it's this shitty show. and now i'm going to go eat. you know, to test my theory.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: the midget in my head with the sledgehammer

i'm at work. i woke up too early today tho. i got up around 1 and tried to go back to sleep, but i was just dozing... so i'm still sleepy. when it was time to get up, my body was still so tired. allen came home early and we snuggled for awhile before i got up. he's still having a slow week. he's handing out estimates, but only a few paying jobs so far. hopefully it will pick up soon.
my ears are still stopped up. i'm taking medicine and using ear drops, but i still feel like i can't hear shit. :(
i have a trainee tonight. it should be fun! but no messengers for me...
had a strange dream... i dreamed carson daly was interviewing this british pop star, but they were calling him eddie and in the dream, it was implied that he was eddie grant. now eddie grant is a black jamaican not some little brittish white boy. but anyway... they're riding down the road in this isuzu trooper and then eddie craws in the front seat. next thing i know, my brother and i are hanging out in the trooper and we were talking about those shoulder pads you can get for seatbelts. we were on the way to my mom's for a dinner party, but it wasn't my mom's house, it was a house with a courtyard and lots of stone, like new orleans i guess..... carson and eddie were coming to dinner too. there was pasta and cheesecake and yummy stuff. i remember saying that if anyone used the phone they better answer the caller ID because allen was supposed to call and i wanted to talk to him. then i was in a car with carson and some MTV exec and the MTV exec was on the phone and allen beeped in..... and i sorta halfway woke up, but i was still asleep. and i was talking to allen on the phone. he was deployed again, in JAMAICA with the coast guard and i was greedily talking to allen because he could only call me twice a week for 10 minutes..... it was weird and then all of a sudden i was pregnant in the dream (not very tho, i wasn't showing), still on the phone with allen while riding with the MTV boys and i held the phone to my stomach so allen could talk to the baby.... and then MTV wanted to do a special on me and allen and the pregnancy and us being seperated.
and then i woke up. STRANGE shit.
ok ashley's here, time to train. bye for now!!!

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: "samurai jack" themesong (in my head)

ok, first off, what the FUCK is up with live journal? every other time i click on something, it pops up that it cannot be displayed and i have to reload it. did someone kick a wire out or what????
i had a WEIRD dream today.... i was in my dad's old cougar (one of those big 79 models that's longer than a boat) driving on I95 with a guy. i don't know if it was allen or what, but it was a guy. so we're driving and right in the middle of the highway, there's a park. no signs, no warning, there's just no more highway, there's this park and a fence around it. so we had to stop. well, we park the car in the parking lot and start to walk around the park, which is named "arwen" after my favorite elf in lord of the rings. well, as we're walking around the park we see a church and there's this lady who looks like my stepbrother's mom (but it's not her) and she tells us that the highway continues over the hill behind the church. so we say okay and keep walking. as we're walking, we look down and see pavement under the grass. we go inside the church and meet the priest and then i split up from the guy, who i'm emotionally close to. i go back out and get the car. the next thing i know it's dark like there's storm clouds in the are and it's muddy and i'm in the car, in the passenger seat and there's no driver. the car is driving itself, like kit from knight rider. and there's a drug bust goign on in the parking lot of this church. there's this white OLDER ford LTD type car that keeps driving up behind me. i tell the cops, one of which is the jamaican police officer i work with, that i'm not involved with the drug bust and they leave me alone. i tell the car to park, but not in a muddy spot. so the car parks and i get out and go in. i go searching for my friend and i'm frantic to find him. i find him and he's now got a buzz cut and he tells me he's rethought his decision not to become a priest and that he's joining the priesthood. and apparently it's like the military, once you join, you're in.... and i become distraught and he tells me we need to go outside and talk. as we're walking out, the priest is standing in an office with a computer, and there's someone in there working on the computer. he looks at us and says "you've got until i get this mouse fixed...." implying that the paperwork hasn't been submitted yet and nothing is final. so my friend and i go outside. we head toward the park, but there's a couple in the park having a picnic, so we head toward some picnic tables over by the parking lot, outside the park's fence. as we're sitting down, i look down and there's this grotto type thing under the tables and i see bea arthur under our table, gardening. we've been discussing the situation the whole time we were walking from the church to the tables and every objection i raise, he fights back. i'm feeling hopeless. as we sit talking, i cry and he starts telling me he hasn't stopped thinking of me the whole time he was making the decision and how he didn't think he could live without me. then he suggests that i stay in his life as his secretary or something, on a friendly basis and i tell him he's nuts. and i cover my eyes with my hands and start sobbing... and he tries to pull my hands down and that's when i woke up. WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD!!!!
i don't know what this dream means. allen says it doesn't mean anything and that i need to stop eating before i go to bed, but i don't eat before i go to sleep. he said it's just my subconscious. but there's still a meaning to what's going on in my subconscious... ovbiously something strange!!!! parks in the middle of the highway. :)
i'm sitting here at work. today's been alright. i called and rescheduled my portrait. allen had a break, so he stopped by home for a few minutes. that was nice, because i was asleep when he got up, so i didn't get to see him before he left. the kitties were really sweet today. i was worried yesterday, because flora was throwing up before i came to work. but she didn't throw up any last night and she didn't today, so i think she's okay. shawnie just brought me some food.... so i'm going to go eat now... :)

Current Mood: good
Current Music: wheel of fortune

so this afternoon i had the STRANGEST dream.... i was in my first car and i was driving down the highway to DC and there was this median that split the highway. i'd taken the wrong lane and needed to get over to the other side. the side i was in was going into the town, on the other side of the median was the highway. so there were these guys directing traffic ahead of me and they let me cut over on the median. well, the guy in the red truck in front of me cut over too. well, next thing i know i'm IN the backseat of this red truck with the guy and his mom! and we're towing my car. i kept looking over my shoulder to see if my car was there. these people were strangers to me. the guy said he was 39, but he looked more like 29. so we're driving and talking and i keep looking over my shoulder to check in my car. next thing i know we're in the building where i work, only it's not this building we're in. it was weird. the room we work in had two off shoots. one of them went to this REALLY nice apartment with vaulted ceilings and all these snazzy swanky decorations everywhere. the other offshoot went through two rooms. one of them was a bedroom with a computer in it and the other was the back part of a cabin, like my late great grandfather's old house. i walked through the offshoot through the bedroom to the log cabin part. the woman that works the nights my group doesn't work was in there on the computer and she was giving me shit about the shirt i was wearing, saying it was too dirty. and i basically told her to mind her own business. so i go to the bathroom, but the guy that was driving me was in there. i stand there watching him a second thinking he's a good looking guy and that he can't be 39. then i went to the front room and talked to sarah. i walked into the swanky apartment side to use the bathroom, but sarah tried to call me back. i decided not to go to the bathroom in there and went outside to get my work shirt. the outside of this building looked like the outside of this building. so i walk back into the cabin part to use the bathroom and change shirts. well, i'm in the bathroom, changing shirts (i still needed to go) and the woman from the truck ride busts in dressed in a formal dress and tells me SHE has to go, and kicks me out. so i walk into the bedroom and say to maureen "ya happy now?" about the shirt. then i go to the closet and i start trying to find black shoes to wear. all i have is sandals. and then i woke up. i don't think i ever got to go to the bathroom...... VERY strange stuff.
woke up today feeling funny. i slept hard.... hehe and dreamed strange road trips. but i woke up feeling kinda heavy. allen had to work today and got called out this morning. but he called me not too long after his second call. he was waiting in a parking lot near our house for another call, but they didn't call him. so he came home while i was eating some cereal. which is good, cause if he hadn't, i would not have gotten to see him and i was barely awake when he was leaving...
while i was showering, i was listening to a mix CD i made last spring. i put all these cool songs on there like my favorite songs off the snatch soundtrack and cool stuff like that. i made two copies of this CD and sent one to a friend of mine in the army who was in kuwait last year. i called it "the scorpion in my boot dance mix." see, this guy, james, was a friend of mine i met when he went out with my friend frankie last winter. he gave us all his address and wanted us to write him. so i'd write him about allen and just silly stuff going on at work. and we'd chat on messenger when he was able to get online. well, he told me this one time that he'd seen a scorpion crawling out of his boot and it freaked him out. so that's where i got the CD title from. what makes me sad is i don't know where james is. he came home in october, but left again in december. i tried to email him and it bounced back, and now i'm worried. he said he was going back to kuwait, but i think he got sent to iraq. i hope he's okay. i wish there was a way to find him, so i can find out how he is and see what's going on with him....
i didn't want to come to work today. i just feel so tired....

hehehe, i've been drinking alot of milk these days.... allen and i go through 3 or 4 gallons of milk a week. but when my stomach starts raging cause i'm stressed out, the milk makes it feel better. i could probably drink a gallon a day. if only water tasted that good....the worse this wedding planning gets and the crappier work gets the more milk i'll be drinking.....
today i've got like a kaleidescope of thoughts and feelings going on.... i woke up today from a dream about having to go to the bathroom. in my dream i was searching for a bathroom in my parents house but none of them would work. one had no seat. one was full of pinecones. it was just so strange!!! allen thinks i have extremely strange dreams and actually, i really do.... he's always like "Don't tell me anymore!" hahahahaha.....
i've been thinking about friendship and how each person defines that word in their own way.... i don't understand some people. one of my friends has pretty much cut me off. we had this thing where we'd talk online but not on the phone and we'd go weeks without seeing one another cause we were both so busy but then she stopped returning my calls and turned me down when i asked her to be in my wedding. and on her website she's been posting weird messages, making little barbed comments. obviously her cornflakes taste pissy but i don't know what the deal is. the short of it is that we've just grown apart and our paths are going in different directions. i'm well on my way to white bread middle class suburbia and i'm happy with it. and that's not the direction her life is heading. i dunno, maybe i'm just not "cool" enough for her anymore. whatever.... it's just baffling.... unless i somehow did something to her that i wasn't aware of... or maybe it's the culmination of all the little things... but i don't get it.
another thing that came to me this morning is am i deluded about myself? i've always had this feeling like i was meant for great things and that i'm meant to do something wonderful for the world. dunno how i'm doing that here and i don't see what road i'm sposed to take to get there. maybe i just have delusions of grandeur or something..... i just have no motivation.... i'm scared i'm going to drag allen down. i hope i don't fuck up his life....
i don't understand recreational drug use. i'm friends with alot of people who do that, but i just don't get it. but i don't like to feel out of control. so i don't get what the attraction is.... but as i've said before on here.... ice cream is my drug of choice!!! hehehe....
todays ice cream flavor: southern butter pecan. yum! :)

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: "i love a rainy night" eddie rabbit